Back in time…

Initially I wanted to express my point of view on domination but I changed my mind because I have realised that before anything, you might want to know more about me. Learn about my journey that made me who I am today. I’ll try to make it as short as possible :)

I was born somewhere in Romania in Focsangeles like me and my brother like to say. I grew up with my grandparents in the countryside enjoying every second of unconditional love and freedom until was time to start the elementary . There I had the happiest childhood not only because I was raised by the most spectacular woman but because I had the feeling that the WORLD was MINE and she…sne of a kind. If I start talking about my grandma we will never finish this article. I will tell only that she was one of the most generous, nurturing and caring person. Her presence in my life had a big impact and influence on my development in the coming years.

I remember I was the little Queen of the village. She would dress me in the morning like an Eskimo and by evening thay didn’t even knew that had a niece. I was quite independent so I would leave their house and visit my favorite neighbours houses where usually I would play, sleep, eat. Basically everything 🤣🤣

Everybody knew me because I was quite loud and my extroverted nature would put a big smile on anyone face except the gooses of my neighbours. We never had a great connection but with a bit of luck and improvisation at the place I managed to avoid them every time.🤣

When school started I had to go back home to my parents and it felt like a “nightmare “ . Don’t get me wrong I loved them but they weren’t “grandma “ and on top of things I had to learn math 🙄. I wasn’t pleased but soon I was about to discover new things so what I thought was a bad dream actually became fun. I used to hang out more with the boys …I wasn’t girlie at all and all my activities back then would involve hanging in the trees, stealing mirabelles, eating seeds and talking for hours…stealing flowers, especially tulips that in the following days we were selling on the market to make money.🤣 We were lucky cause all the families that lived in the building had kids basically in the same time so we were many and very close.

I remember in the 4th elementary grade, I started to have a crush on a schoolmate who didn’t considered me too much or he was very good at hiding it. For that reason maybe everytime I used to came across him on the corridor I used to beat or bite him. 🤣🤣

Pain triggered in me at a young age and I always say if the woman has temper and she hits you it’s because she loves you 😂😂😂 now that I write this I remember I twisted my elbow trying to figure out where he was living. My level of excitement while doing forbidden things made me forget where I was walking and so I have had my first time wearing gypsum for a couple of weeks. Of course I didn’t learned…you’ll see why later…

Soon, with no warning, my life would change forever without having to do anything but acknowledging probably one of life’s biggest lesson.

ACCEPTANCE.

My parents, without any warning, decided to divorce. I prefer not going into details as much as I love them…

I chose to stay with my mother until I finished high school and started University. We weren’t mother and daughter, but sisters,always supporting and deciding together. My father had always been present even if at that time was difficult to accept what I thought was unacceptable.

I needed time to understand his decision and to learn to never judge people by their actions, especially him. When we are kids we relate to our parents as they are the adults that MUST do as we consider is right, but sometimes we forget that maybe they are still young and unsure of their future . I also learned to forgive with time as to comprehend better ones decisions by trying to put myself in the same situation.It’s not always easy to understand the actions of your loved ones especially when you are a kid. But experiences happen always with a reason. It’s like when life prepares you step by step for your purpose in life.

Someone once asked me how can I forgive so easily?

Well… you don’t forgive someone because they deserve it but you do it for you. If you want to keep your heart light you’ll not burden it with things that you cannot change or that never depended on you.

You need the forgiveness in order to move on. It’s essential for our own development and growth. But….yes, it might feel heavy and very painful before we realise that nothing comes to us but to make us stronger.

The last year year of high school brought love to me or at least I thought so. With it, ACCEPTANCE became even stronger but here is another chapter that I’ll introduce to you that thought me to NEVER GIVE UP ON MYSELF!